25 August 2010

I am ready, wait no I am not, yes I am ready, wait....

No I am not. I am having my very own internal debate.

Max is starting pre-school on September 7th and it is all I can think about these days. If anyone were inside my head they would be amazed at how many thoughts are bouncing around in there.

I know he is ready....I think he is ready...I hope he is ready.  ugh.

I am so excited and nervous all at the same time. He will be going full time, 8 am to 2 pm. They don't offer a part time (which was kind of what I was hoping for), AND he will be riding the bus to and from school. This makes me  have heart palpitations. We did talk to one of the teachers when we did his registration papers and they said that there will only be 3 and 4 year olds on the bus. They have an aide that gets the kids to their seat, straps them in (all the buses have seat belts), and then the bus does not pull away until they sit back down. I am still nervous.

I am nervous about a million things; he will be scared on the bus, he will be scared at school, I am  nervous about a 100 other things. I really hope that all those mom's out there that have kids in school already will tell me these are all normal thoughts.

But at the same time I am excited....I am excited to have only one child to deal with during the day, a child that is still taking 2 naps a day. Which translates to me having a bit of free time during the day. At the same time all this excitement often turns to guilt. Guilt that I am sending my kid off for someone else to take care of. I know that I am being silly but sometimes it is virtually impossible for me to turn my head off. ugh.

I don't know that I can take 2 more weeks this.

18 August 2010

Truly Blessed....

When I first moved to New Jersey no one could have convinced me that I would like it here. I was 5 months pregnant, just left a brand new home that I LOVED and left a group of friends behind that were truly amazing.

I was lucky enough to find a playgroup that was full of some great moms. But unfortunately that group fell apart but I did meet a few WONDERFUL mom's that I really connected with. Then I was able to find another playgroup and really loved being a part of it. For the last year I have truly enjoyed being a part of this group and again met some awesome mom's. Unfortunately some things happened in the last few weeks that I didn't feel comfortable with and I made the touch decision to leave the group.

Thankfully through the strong connections I have made with these moms I was able to find another playgroup. I truly hope this one is as great as the last few have been, as I love that my children are able to interact with other children their own ages. Plus as I mentioned I have made some great friends.

Today I got to hang out with one of those amazing mom's. My friend Trish helped me with my very first lesson in home canning. It was great....we made peach salsa (ABSOLUTELY DELISH, btw) and it was just great hanging out with her, laughing about our kids, maybe doing some complaining about our hubbies, and just having fun. It was so great just spending time with such a fun, amazing, wonderful women....no cattiness, just plain fun.

I was driving home and realized how truly blessed I am. Both Max and Emma were passed out in the back seat and the world just felt right. As I get older I really feel that I am becoming wiser. I am of course not perfect by any means, (just ask my hubbie...lol!) but I am starting to become comfortable with me. I love my husband so very much, my children are amazing and I don't know what or who I would be without them and I feel truly blessed to have had such amazing people come into my life.

This post basically boils down to a humongous THANK YOU to all those people....my friend Trish always says to "love wastefully" and I just love that statement and all that goes with it. As my 37th birthday draws near this is quickly becoming my new mantra and I plan to really love as wastefully as I can!!!

15 August 2010

Emma's Baptism....

My sweet baby girl has finally had her baptism. We had originally planned on doing this when she was much younger but time of course got away from me and before I knew it spring was here and summer around the corner! But it's done.  Uncle Kurt is Emma's Godfather and my wonderful friend Melanie is her Godmother....so proud to have them be part of Emma's upbringing!

Emma was a doll at the church and looked BEAUTIFUL in the dress that her Mom-Mom made for her. It was just gorgeous! Max was also amazing at the church. Big thanks to Uncle Danny who was able to keep him entertained for the entire church service.

After the service we headed back to the house and had a wonderful afternoon with friends and family! Here are just a few pics of the big occasion. Here are just a few pics...will try and get more up soon!